Friday, July 8, 2011

The life we lost

5th May 2010  was the day I will never forget.  It was Wednesday, I remembered it well because it was public holiday in Netherlands (only 5 days in a year the Dutch enjoy public holiday).  We heard Sam's mobile phone rang none stop at about 8AM our time.  Missed calls from Australia's number and immediately Sam went to laptop and dial back Solonge's number from the Sykpe.  As soon as she answered the phone we heard nothing but loud crying from the other end.  Our heart beat so fast, and Sam practically was stammering, asking her what was going on.  Solonge ranting - she's gone, Marylee is dead!.  Our world spun for that second, still coudn't comprehend the message.  We had to ask Solonge twice to ensure we heard it correctly.  
Marylee, our loving and beautiful niece.  We simply couldn't believe it.  A healthy girl at 20, bubbly and ready to embrace the world. Life just started for her, but God loves her more. He took her away in middle of the night and she simply didn't wake up the next morning. Her little sister came to her room, to wake her up for work and her piercing screaming was heard by their parents who were getting ready for breakfast.  They came and discovered their daughter Marylee was already gone.  Doctor calculated she has been dead at least 4-6 hours before they discovered her body.  What a shock!  Then I told Sam to call his mum who was at that time was in Rachaya, Labenon.  We called her, she was having her breakfast, and as soon as we told her the news we could hear her screaming at the other line, crying her heart out.  We just hang on listening to her, worried about her. We put down the phone after ensuring someone was with her. 
And the days ahead, I was in daze.  Everyday I went to Facebook, looking at Marylee's photos, tears in my eyes.  For a few nights I woke up in the middle of the night, checking on Saalem, checking on Sam.  So afraid having to endure the pain of losing someone you love, you own kid.  Praying to God not to test me in such a way.  
The following months I read day after day how Jaqueline, Marylee's mother trying to cope with her life.  Her struggles to come to term of losing her lovely daugther.  Trying to be strong for her family, but her heart and mind simply refuses to accept what has been happening.  I felt her pain. Hopelessly watching from far, knowing nothing can be said or done to take away the pain.  
The whole family struggle to cope with the fact.  Including her fiancee, who until today still live in the love they shared together for good 6 years. 
One year down the road, the scene remain the same.  
The pain still as strong as when it just happened. 
The emotional scar permanently embedded on most of the people Marylee touched. 

I pray to God that Marylee will be in peace in heaven, she is in a better place.
I pray to God to give inner strength to her immediate families and fiance, to be able to move on and deal with the lost. 

From HIM we come, to HIM we return.  Amin. 

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