Family and loneliness

Once again, I am far away from the place I grew up. There is a feeling of disconnected.  To the root, to the basic understanding what culture is all about.
How many of you, out there, who wish that you are not what or where you are now?
I used to be like that. 10 years ago. 
I met this fantastic man.  Swept me off my feet. Before him, loneliness spelt out with capital L. Surrounded by friends and family, but the heart was empty.
I left my beloved home and country, followed my heart. Religion and culture clashed, something I was not prepared, nor expected. Constant battles of the what-if syndrome drove the gaps even wider. Reality set in, heart that was used to be full, now slowly eroded. Where this road would lead us?  How this would end? Could it because this was not my root, reaching happiness was not always easy? What if we were not where we were? If only I was standing on the root, familiar ground, things would get better?
I was afraid of the unknowns. Believing grass always greener from where I came from.
6 years spent, decision made, we decided to pursue happiness that deserted us in the homeland of the man I love, we returned to my root. By now, it was 3 of us.
6 months later, sudden realization came through. Happiness came from within.  It was not about the country we live in, not the people we minggled with. It is about satisfaction of what you have, be grateful for what you have. Religion view should unite, not divide.  Differences to be treated as gifts, not curse. Complimenting the gaps, patch that up, and build the foundation. 
10 years is not a short journey.  Accomplishments are not clearly seen. But, satisfaction in the air. I am settling in.
We are now moving on - to another foreign land, does not belong to either one of us. Here, another culture another land, another people. 
Challenges infront still as great as it was before. 2 tribes, facing apposite sides, pulling us apart. Battle will countinue to bring these 2 together.
I've yet to decide and determine resolution.  Not really care to start looking for one. 
One step at a time.
Had my first step today.
Second one will have to wait.